So for all you busybodies who kept pestering me about my SPM results, here they are, in their somewhat miserable glory:
A – English, Maths, 1119
B – Biology, EST, Physics, Malay, Moral, Add Maths
C – Chemistry, Chinese
D – Sejarah
To be honest, the results were way below my expectations. I was actually quite disappointed, and it wasn’t until the countless pep talks from my friends that I finally cheered up and got over it. Looking on the bright side, at least I get to stay in college. And like how many of my friends said, Sejarah is a useless subject anyway.
But I can’t help feeling envious and just a little jealous at my friends who did really well, which is actually most of them. I feel like an idiot in a crowd of geniuses. I know I should put aside my feelings and just be happy for them. And I truly am. But it does get to me sometimes.
And then there’s this whole issue about curricular achievements in school. I think I’ve finally caught on to Weng Jeng’s paranoia of not having a nice CV because you don’t have a major position in your club’s committee. Now that I’ve noticed, a lot of my friends do have major positions in their clubs. Kendrick’s president of Rock-Climbing (well, only because he started the club, but whatever), Maira’s in the Board Of Directors in 4 clubs, and Mark’s president of Tree Huggers and Anime Club, as well as Treasurer of Rotaract.
And the only achievement I have is that I’m the Publicity Director of the Dance Club. Or, as Hui Qian puts it, 'the ‘notice boy’, which just makes me feel even more pathetic.
Which is why I’m going to strive to work my way into the committee in the clubs I’m in. Not just for a nice CV, but also for fun (well, as fun as being in a committee can get). I’m just worried that I’ll be so stressed out to the point where my studies get affected. And trust me, I’ve seen it happen.
But until then, I’ll just have to hang tight.